My Life as a Eunuch

What's a man to do if he doesn't want his balls hanging around? Simple: Just find someone to cut them off.

"It probably goes back to my childhood," he concedes. "But I never liked having balls. And I never liked the fact that I was circumcised. I blame that on my parents, but back then it was the thing to do."

He set up the operation through a Beverly Hills plastic surgeon, who has contacts in Mexico. Capeheart got a deal on the price. The three individual procedures would have cost a total of $11,500. He got the package-deal price of $6000. Thus far the only downside has been the hourly hot flashes Capeheart has to endure. "I was warned about it, and they are not real comfortable, I'll tell you that. They last about three to four minutes, and from your waist up you are very hot." Once those subside in a few months, he anticipates settling into a peaceful, urge-free life.

"I figure if I'm crazy, I'm crazy. I don't think I am. It is just something I wanted to do for a long time. My kids are grown, I had the money, so I just had it done."

Robert, a 40-year-old resident of Palm Springs, California, who didn't want his last name used, is also at a loss to explain why he's desperately seeking castration. For him it started with a simple vision. "When I was in high school, I used to fantasize about having a vasectomy, and it kind of progressed from there until I finally realized what I wanted."

He got married, divorced, and took a male lover, but the thought of castration never left his mind. It's the presence in his underwear that he can't stand. Or something like that. "The testicles hanging between my legs, they are just annoying to me. I don't like the weight. They are uncomfortable. I prefer when it is lighter and smoother and cleaner. I want to keep my penis, I want to keep my scrotum, but I just don't want them down there."

The sex drive will go, an inevitable result of castration, but one that can be reversed with testosterone therapy. "I am kind of discouraged with the sexual scene out here," he says. "I like sex, but I want to experience the loss of desire. Why go through this unless you are willing to pay the price?"

Should he find a sex scene to his liking, a shot or two will enable him to jump right back in. (Human Sexuality 101: Eunuchs on testosterone can get erections and even ejaculate, because most ejaculatory fluid is produced in the prostate.)

If all goes well, Robert will be cut this summer. First he has to save a little money to fix his car's transmission. Then he has to come up with plane fare to South Florida for a rendezvous with Gelding. They've met only via e-mail and the phone, never in person. Still, Robert is confident Gelding is the man for the job. "My whole thing is I have to trust the person," says Robert, who describes himself as cautious. "And I have gotten to know him."

Through castration Gelding has also come to know himself. And what he's learned is that the human mind, or more precisely his mind, was enigmatic, illogical, and awash in hormones that controlled him in subtle and disturbing ways. At least now he's in charge of the hormones.

"I don't like to be controlled by something I don't understand," he says. "This controlled me, the urge, it controlled me for years. You don't know how much you are driven by your hormones until you take them away."

Contact Bob Whitby at his e-mail address: bob.whitby@newtimesbpb.com

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