4chan Camgirl Loli-chan Grows Up

But Loli didn't wait that long — she just moved her internet presence deeper underground, where her parents didn't know to look, and posted when they weren't around. She would upload images on places such as ChanSluts and check up on what she thought of as her "fan club," which then numbered in the hundreds. (Even today, thousands of her photos are plastered across the internet on image boards.)

Her first online boyfriend was upfront about the fact that he was 30 years old, even though she was only 14 at the time. The two dated for eight months after chatting for a year. Loli never knew what her beau looked like until one day she received a picture of a fat, nerdy guy with curly dark hair. It disgusted her, and she ended the relationship.

The second boyfriend called himself George Peard and claimed to be only a few months older than Loli. He sounded young the one time they spoke on the phone, but his sexual interests proved otherwise. He would constantly describe sexual fantasies he had about his 11-year-old girl cousin. "George" would pressure Loli into sending special photos, such as her in a skirt or wearing pigtails.

A portrait of Cracky-chan drawn by Loli-chan.
Courtesy of Loli-chan
A portrait of Cracky-chan drawn by Loli-chan.
Pat Kinsella

Way before sexting became the topic of national conversation, girls like Loli were setting the prototype for self-exploitation. And because they did so in the nascent days of the internet, no one could have anticipated the consequences. Today, entire academic journals exist to study the effect of the web on attention-seeking kids, but nothing like that existed even a few years ago. The Chans provide pretty much the only longitudinal study on the fallout of oversharing.

And though parents today are at least a little internet-savvy, their counterparts in the mid-'00s weren't clear on how seedy the web could be. With no one watching, girls like Loli used the internet to explore their sexual curiosities. Chans posted pictures of themselves in a liminal period between the invention of the web and the time when adults became as knowledgeable as their offspring. To Catch a Predator — a TV show in which host Chris Hansen entraps would-be rapists — is pretty much a pop-culture trope these days. However, the kids of the previous generation received little to no warning about such men.

Even though the mounting evidence against Loli's boyfriend George was overwhelming, the 14-year-old still felt a certain amount of inertia. "I felt obligated every month on the same day that we started dating to send him a set of pics," she says. "He never explicitly asked, but I thought I was doing it in gratitude for him dating me."

After George persuaded Loli to send nude pictures, he posted them on 4chan. Other posters quickly derided her as a slut. She never dated anyone online again.

One day when she was 16 years old, Loli met a scrawny boy named Lucien in a cemetery near her house. She had to sneak out to see him at first. But after a year, her parents agreed to meet him over some turkey clubs at a local Denny's. Loli was enamored with his good looks, his jokes, and the fact that he knew nothing about 4chan. Soon she made him her first real-life boyfriend and began calling him by the pet name Lucien-chan.

"I want my relationship with Lucien to have been my first, but I had these pseudo-relationships first," she says. "It wasn't them I was in love with — it was the idea of them they tried to represent."


Zach is drunk enough on good Scotch that he has switched to swigging Old Grand-Dad whiskey straight from a plastic-capped bottle. It's an economical decision, says the pudgy 38-year-old, because it all tastes the same after a certain point. He's wearing an old East German officer's hat. At 1:30 in the morning on a Tuesday — a school night for the University of Rhode Island senior — he pulls up a video he's seen hundreds of times.

Zach puts down the antique C96 Mauser he's brandishing to click Play on a YouTube video of a preteen Loli spinning around in a plush computer chair. As she squeals with delight, a smile creeps across Zach's face, and he pushes his ratty shoulder-length brown hair away from his eyes for a better look. His bloodshot eyes begin to gloss over.

"Isn't she cute?" he muses, although it's not clear whom he's asking.

Zach is one of the many fans with whom Loli regularly Skypes. There are also a handful of other hard-core obsessives who send expensive gifts such as DSLR cameras and oddities like dresses and maid outfits befitting a doll. (Zach sends mostly books.) One fan who lives in England even has a stick-and-poke tattoo of Loli's face on his forearm, she says.

But for all the men she keeps up with online, an untold number of others hoard her photos, a fact that haunts her every time she steps outside. A 44-year-old doctoral student at Temple University named Rod Vosburgh was one of them.

In October 2006, FBI Special Agent Wade Luders posted a link on the pedophile message board Ranchi under the alias "Bongzilla." Although it was advertised as a hard-core porn video featuring a 4-year-old, the URL really led to a computer program that would track the IP addresses of anyone who clicked it. Vosburgh, a Holocaust expert, was one of the people who tried to download the video.

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stallion333
stallion333

My Uncle Joseph recently got an awesome blue Mercedes-Benz R-Class Diesel by work part time using a lap-top. my sources J­a­m­2­0­.­­o­m

smdrpepper
smdrpepper

Sad story, but one that has a very important lesson.

 
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