4chan Camgirl Loli-chan Grows Up

There's one fan who likes to tip her for making her bed and another who pays to see her unmake it. She doesn't mind those requests, but she freaked out when one anonymous viewer asked if she would pretend to be his 14-year-old daughter and cry. (She banked about $1,500 in her first two days on MyFreeCams, but business has slowed, and overall she has earned $4,000 in eight months.)

She also vacillates between fear and anger. Two months ago, she posted her learner's permit with her home address on a message board as if to say, "All right, fuckers, if you're going to get me, do it already!"

Perhaps most telling: For the past four years, she's been dating Lucien, who keeps a Glock in their bedroom and hopes to become a cop by December.

Still, it's difficult for Loli to accept her descent into relative obscurity. She wishes she could monetize her minor celebrity and become self-sufficient. That aspiration is complicated by the fact that her resumé is basically empty, excepting a seasonal job she held at a grocery store a couple of years ago. But while Loli is sort of stuck in a state of arrested development, other camgirls have successfully moved on.

There's Loli's friend Niki, a former wannabe Chan, who is working on a series of Cracky and Loli etchings as her art school thesis. The project will tell the story of the two camgirls' rise to fame and the ways technology can lead to psychological disorder. "I ultimately felt more comfortable being recognized for works on paper rather than photos featuring myself," Niki says.

Allison Harvard, also known as Creepy-chan, posted photos that circulated in 2005 — the same time as Loli's. In 2009, she finished second in the 12th cycle of America's Next Top Model. The judges never mentioned 4chan on the show, but they made frequent references to the 25-year-old's "massive social media following."

Today there are also girls like Catie Wayne, a teen who became widely known as Boxxy and received more than 25 million hits on her YouTube channel after her internet "career" launched on 4chan in 2009. She, too, monetizes her personality, by selling ads on her personal website. She even makes appearances at conventions and encourages interaction with fans, which harks back to the earliest camgirls.

Is Loli jealous of the more successful Chans? "I don't really think I deserve to be idolized, so I'm not mad or hurt that people don't like me anymore," she says. "I guess my dad is right, and people only liked me because I was a little kid and they were all pedophiles. So it's something I should never have done."

She recently contacted the administrators at ChanSluts and had them take down most of her posts. She's trying to erase her internet presence and hopes to enroll at Miami Dade College and study illustration. Although the thing she likes best about herself is her physical beauty, she wants to be known for something other than her looks.

"I've never really given myself a shot at life," she says.

But if Loli stops posting, she will be missed. As one anonymous poster recently lamented on ChanSluts: "Poor loli. did it to herself by being so loveable for all these years. take a puff and chill out loli. im sure everything will be fine. and if not. millions still love you."

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stallion333
stallion333

My Uncle Joseph recently got an awesome blue Mercedes-Benz R-Class Diesel by work part time using a lap-top. my sources J­a­m­2­0­.­­o­m

smdrpepper
smdrpepper

Sad story, but one that has a very important lesson.

 
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